I could cry right now. What kind of tears? Tears of relief. Tears of joy. Tears of exhaustion. Tears of thanksgiving. Tears of pain.
It has been a long 6 months. Overwhelming pregnancy in every aspect. A labor and delivery sent from Heaven. A beautiful, yummy baby boy to marvel. A sorrowful, painful end to breastfeeding. The sickness from crazy hormones and migraines. The hope and uncertainty in hormone therapy. Realization that my husband and I have been through a lot in seven years of marriage. The hope and joy in sending our daughters to school for the first time.
Now that I'm laying on the couch with my feet up listening to Ian talk himself to sleep in his crib and the soothing hum of the refrigerator, I can't help but give a sigh of sheer relief. Now I can rest. Now I have quiet. Now our lives are changing. We anticipate a good change in our crazy, always-noisy routine. Having 4 children 5 years old and under while battling endometriosis and a hormone deficiency has been exhausting. I'm on my feet from the moment the baby wakes (typically 5:30am) until the last child falls asleep (lights out is 7pm, but they fight it until 8:30pm most nights). If I have a migraine or sheer nausea, it's a couch day and survival mode.
Even if the three younger children are all napping, the eldest won't let me nap. It's "I'm bored," "I'm lonely," or "I'm hungry" every five minutes plus that's the only time to do chores.
Not today. No chores. No getting up. I'm resting. This Is My Time!
I know that the new school routine means we will have to figure things out with rides and homework, but it's a small sacrifice if I can rest and have the time to be the best person of myself in order to take care of everyone.
***ten minute break to give Matthew his bottle and tuck him back in for his nap***
I'm looking forward to getting back in to my hobbies again. Coloring, room decor, drawing, cooking, baking, blogging, farming... It's so exciting!
Right now I'm excited about turning the little room next to Peter's office into the Hobby Room. I'm going to put all our crafts and sewing things in there. That will free up space in our master bedroom for us to make it into a more relaxing space (once the crib is out).
I keep glancing into the dining room to admire the beautiful paint job Peter did as well as the lovely chandelier he bought as a surprise. I certainly have a lot to be thankful for in spite of how hard life has been!
Naps are over; it's time to get my mom groove back on! I hope to blog more in the future!
My life,
Michelle
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